But me, I’m not giving up.
I’m sticking around to see what God will do.
I’m waiting for God to make things right.
I’m counting on God to listen to me.
– The Message
“Thank you” is completely inadequate, but I want you all to know how much your prayers, love, and support have meant to me and mine this week. Last week in this post I mentioned, very briefly, that I’ve been dealing with some health issues and wanted to fill you in a little more about that. (If you didn’t read that last post, go catch up or this one won’t make much sense!) Here’s the cliff notes version:
For a few months I’ve had numbness/tingling/pain in my hands and legs, headaches, and extreme fatigue. So my general practitioner referred me to a neurologist who, after a series of tests, (including one that showed I don’t have much feeling in my feet) said she wanted me to have a brain scan. That scan was Tuesday afternoon. On Wednesday we went back for her to read the results, and she said there was a spot on my brain that concerned her. She mentioned a specific incurable disease (which was my fear from the very beginning – Web MD is bad… so bad.) She wanted a neck scan immediately, and told us that if the neck scan showed spots it was most likely that disease, but if it was clear then the spot on the brain was probably inflammation and could be treated easily. So Wednesday afternoon I had the neck scan, and the whole time I laid in the tube I cried and begged God for the scan to be clear. The technician told me not to swallow hard or the images would be blurry. Clearly she has never experienced a potentially life altering medical issue. 🙂 That night we prayed specifically that the scan would be clear, then we called, messaged, and emailed friends and family who we knew would intercede for us. And they started asking for clear scans too. But they also prayed for peace and rest (two things we hadn’t even thought of). And that night Anderson and I slept better than we have in weeks and Thursday I felt an overwhelming sense of peace all day. Today I woke up praising God and thanking him for this trial that has allowed us to grow closer as a family and closer to him in ways we never would have otherwise. He’s growing us and changing us, and that’s never easy.
But don’t get me wrong. I’ve also had moments of total fear and FREAKING OUT this week. At one point I was standing in my kitchen with my Mom (who somehow found excuses to be at our house all week) and just broke down and yelled, “Mom, I’m so pissed! Why is all of this happening at once?” And she just cried with me. This has been one of the hardest months of my life, but God has been faithful every day. He’s given me strength for each day. Then the next day he did it all over again. So when the doctor called today I wasn’t sure what she was going to say, but I knew God would be faithful no matter what.
The doctor finally called today and immediately told me and Anderson, “The scan was clear!” Right then we started thanking God for answering our prayers, and we haven’t stopped yet. The best part was calling and messaging all the people who had been begging God on our behalf and telling them “HE HEARD US! AND HE ANSWERED!” My Dad and I just cried on the phone. I think I might have heard him say, “Thank you Jesus,” but that’s about it. This week has been an emotional roller coaster, but tonight I’m overwhelmed with gratefulness for friends and family who are willing to stand with me and for a faithful God who hears and answers!
Oh, and on the plus side, since my feet are numb I can wear really uncomfortable shoes and today when I cut a chunk out of my toe I barley felt it. Always a bright side. 🙂
PS – We still have to figure out what is causing my symptoms, and that will mean more tests. But we’ll worry about that next week!
Praising God with you, Lyndsay! He is good and faithful, no matter what, He is good and faithful! I hope I see you Sunday so I can give you a big ol’ hug, friend! Love you!<3
I love you too JoJo!
I am still doing my happy dance and it really is not pretty. Dr. Joe likes it but he thinks anything I do is awesome!
I’d LOVE to see that happy dance!!!
Praising God – So thankful for His faithfulness and peace that He can give just when we need it. We are continuing to pray for you and Anderson and sweet Kingston – well truthfully your whole family. Much love…
Thank you for praying and for the sweet message you sent last week!!
Lyndsay, I’m so sorry to hear all that you’re going through. I too will keep you in my prayers. You may have already been tested for this, just I thought I’d mention it, but have your thyroid checked (if you haven’t already). It’s just a simple blood test. I have hypothyroidism and can tell you firsthand that little gland can cause miserable symptoms if it’s not functioning properly. Numbness and tingling in your limbs, headaches, extreme fatigue (which is unfortunately a symptom I’ve dealt with on a daily basis for years) are all possible symptoms, along with a lengthy list of others. I have a great endocrinologist if you need a recommendation. I hope you get some answers and feel better soon!
God is good!
Yes he is!!!
Sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks on your behalf. You are so loved and have touched and inspired more lives than you’ll ever know. Your heavenly crown is going to be so jeweled out, you’ll have to carry it in a custom made Louis Vuitton tote (hey, it’s heaven, dream big 😉 Wish we were closer so I could hug you!!
Taryn, You always make me smile. I love this!!!
Praying for your family! Your are always such a sweet reminder of God’s love and how he uses someone to touch another person at just the right time!
Thank you. :))))
Hi I know you won’t remember me but I was in the youth when you were just a little girl. Your family has been such a blessing to me especially your mom. I have been praying for you , I wasn’t sure what was wrong but I knew God knows . I am so thankful to read such wonderful news. What an awesome God we serve. I will continue to pray for you. So thankful to hear the good news God Bless you
Carrie, You are so sweet to pray for me. Thank you!!!!
praise God! continuing to lift you and your family up in prayer. happy easter!
Andrea, I hope you had a great Easter too! Thank you. 🙂
Such good news. Now lets find the cause & cure it. We don’t need to worry because God is in control and he will always be by your side. Praying for a healthy outcome and happiness for your future.
Praising God He always hears the prayers of His children. Praying for continued strength as you walk this journey and for answers and healing. What a mighty God we have who loves us so much!!! I rejoice with you guys!
Dear little sister
How precious are our Father’s thoughts toward us! We are rejoicing with you for your positive news and will be praying for the drs to find what is going on and be able to treat it. Lyndsay, your transparency, honesty, and faith are such a blessing to see as you live life and a real encouragement to those who read your blog. We love you and your entire family.
Happy, happy Easter. HE is risen!
I love you too, Mrs. Danielle!!!
After seeing a post from your Mom requesting prayer, you have been on my heart and when I arrived home from New York, shared that request with my husband. We have been praying for you and your health issues (not knowing at that time what they were), and for your sweet, sweet family as well. Praise the Lord that you received a good report. My husband has endured some health issues during the past 6 months, and our faith in our Lord has been the thing that has brought us through dark days more than once, and through it all, we knew that we were not alone. HE was with us.
Congratulations on your good news, and we will still be praying for you all.
Psalm 91:2: I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in Him will I trust.
God Bless You- Mary Kate Thompson
Mrs. Mary Kate, Thank you for praying and for sharing that verse. I’ve repeated it so many times over the last few days!!
I am so grateful that you shared your trials and heartache. It is easy to post the good parts of our lives. And I love to see the blessings that God sends your way! Not long before you posted these posts I had a miscarriage right after we hit our “it is ok to tell the world” mark. So right after the announcement I had to some how take it back. In the same week of the miscarriage my husband lost his job. Seriously!?!Could we possibly handle anything else? But just like you, I see God’s work everyday! We are closer to God and each other more than ever before. And the very next week Kevin received a job offer far beyond his previous one! God is AMAZING and I am so happy that you shared your personal story. And know that I will also continue to pray for your health and Anderson a fabulous job!
Tracy, Thank you so much for sharing that. Wow! I’m sorry you’ve gone through such a hard time, but am SO GLAD he;s using this time in your life for good. He is so, so good to us! Thank you for praying too. That means a lot! 🙂
“Never once did we ever walk alone, Never once did He leave us on our own. You are faithful, God You are faithful.” Thank you Jesus. Jeremiah 29:11
PRAISE THE LROD! I am so so so so thankful! I wish I had known what was going on so I could pray too but it looks like the Lord heard all the prayers of so many! I am so glad girl! I hope y’all had a wonderful Easter weekend! Hoping these next test show nothing minor and you can get on with life and ENJOYING it without fear and worry and anxiety. Because those sometimes are just as bad as an ‘incurable disease’. Praise the Lord girl! MUCH LOVE!!!!!
L-ROD?!?!?! What…you don’t know him!?!>!>!>!
MY BAD! I was too excited, I couldn’t type right!
Annie, Thank you for being excited with me! And I guess we can praise LROD too. :))
Hi-I’m an occasional visitor ofyour blog-photography is a hobby and I enjoy checking out people’s photo style. One of the last occasions I read this post,,,and thought I’d see if you gave us a follow-up. I hope you are doing very well. 6 years ago I experienced tingling, some loss of feeling in my lower legs and feet, and extreme physical exhaustion in my legs-almost burning—and a general feeling of being off balance or dizzy. A spinal tap confirmed my worst fear…I had Multiple Sclerosis. I thought my life was over,,,I felt like I wanted to hide,,,,my Dad had it from 35-45 when he passed. I couldn’t repeat what he had gone through.
But you know what? I’m doing great. I continue to work and exercise everyday and eat really well,,,I’m on meds that weren’t available when my dad was so ill-and mris haven’t shown any progression. I am keeping it at bay. It has rocked my world profoundly-emotionally—but it has not proven to be my greatest fear after all–not the one I thought it would be. I don’t know why I’m saying this,,,,,just maybe in case this was the direction you feared – I wanted you to know that there are many many many people that are fortunate to live with it with manageable and most often for me almost nonexistent physical effects on our lives. Slight tingles or numbness, get tired more quickly, small stuff really-doesn’t keep me from doing a thing. I wish the best for you.
Sarah! That is amazing, and I so appreciate you sharing your story. It’s crazy that one disease can look so different on people. And I can’t imagine how gripped you must’ve been with fear after watching your dad suffer. I have more tests in a few weeks and will definitely give an update when I know more. Thanks so much for reaching out!!!