I’m not a fearful person. In fact, Anderson and I are both a little on the laid-back side. Maybe too laid back at times. Kind of “let it be” people. We trust God with our lives and our home. And that’s that. When we need to make a decision we ask God for wisdom, and then do what he tells us to do. There’s usually not much agonizing over decisions or wavering back and forth.
Lately I’ve been feeling uneasy about sending Kingston to school. Not about the school in particular – we really like it! And not even about whether he’s ready or not. I think it’s great for him! It’s just about sending my baby out into the world. And it’s about this big change that we’re experiencing. I’ve had a knot in my stomach a lot over the last couple of weeks but couldn’t put my finger on why. So I told God how I was feeling and asked him to please give me peace. And he lead me to this verse (through a devotion I was reading):
“Forget about what’s happened;
don’t keep going over old history.
Be alert, be present. I’m about to do something brand-new.
It’s bursting out! Don’t you see it?
There it is!”
He reminded me that he is doing something new in my home. We’re in a brand new phase, and instead of feeling anxious I’m embracing this time!