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…with grief. The only way to describe how I feel right now. Thursday night Anderson and I were cooking dinner anticipating the arrival of my…

…with grief. The only way to describe how I feel right now.

Thursday night Anderson and I were cooking dinner anticipating the arrival of my parents and Grandma. Plans changed. My dad called and told us to get to the hospital. Grandma had an accident, and we needed to come. I asked questions, but he wouldn’t tell me anything. I knew it was bad. He didn’t want to tell me on the phone. My family all got there and waited. The doctor told us what we were dreading. This was it. As friends began arriving at the hospital I felt like I was in a dream and just wanted to wake up. Friday morning I woke up and realized the dream was reality. That’s when it hit. She wasn’t here. My Grandma, my buddy, my role model, my college roommate was gone.

I never thought this day would actually come. She was the liveliest lady I’d ever known and I often forgot just how old she was. But she was ready. She’d longed for this day for 8 long years (ever since my Grandpa died). What a happy day it must have been for him!

One of our family-friends said to me, “Just think about it Lyndsay-She got all dressed up and ready to have dinner with you Thursday night. Instead she got to have dinner with her honey!”

My grief is selfish. I know she’s happy! But I wasn’t quite ready (probably never would’ve been). I’m so grateful for the life she lived-the example she was for me and countless others. I can’t talk about her much right now…it’s just too raw. But I did want to share something someone else wrote. I just went to FBC Jax’s website and read a beautiful press release from Dr. Mac. It is a fitting tribute to this amazing lady: http://www.fbcjax.com/Press%20Release%20for%20web.pdf

Thank you so much for your phone calls, messages, visits, cards, flowers and words of encouragement. Please keep our family in your prayers.

We do not mourn as those who have no hope.

17 comments

  1. Grandma Shirley?? 🙁 I’m so so so sorry Lynds. I’ve heard you talk about this amazing hillarious beautiful soul of a woman for YEARS now – even remember your stories from when you lived with her. I am so so sorry and yet so glad she got to see you marry the love of your life before going to be with hers.

  2. Lyndsay: I am attemting to find words to describe what I feel, but I will just say that Your grief is mine! Let the God of all comforts comfort our hearts now, specially yours and that of your parents. We got to know your gramma only for a short while during the wedding and we loved her as if we knew her all her life! God took her to Himself! This world, our world will never be the same, but, thankfully, things do not end here! We will meet again! I am sorry for your, our loss. Give my love to all your family. Eliana is in Brazil and tomorrow I will let her know. She will have the same feelings as we all do right now. Love!Your dad-in-law.Milt

  3. lynds…..ugh….i feel so helpless right now! it sucks being so many miles away while you and ander are going through such a difficult time. i just keep thinking to myself how thankful i am that i got to meet this amazing grandma of yours! i feel so blessed by that opportunity. and how awesome it is that the lord allowed her enough time to watch you fall in love with ander and to get to know him and to be there to celebrate in your wedding. i so wish we could be down there right now! i know you have a TON going on right now…but please know you are in my thoughts all day long and in my prayers! we love you guys!!!!fyi….this same kind of thing happened to ben and i after we got married. it was my grandpa. we got married in aug and he passed in dec. – on my birthday none the less! i know what it’s like to be a newlywed and suffer through something like this with someone you loved so much! but it’s amazing how god will pull you guys together and even closer on such a huge level. love you guys – alot!

  4. Words cannot express what you are feeling now and I understand that. Your Grandmother was an amazing woman and led an amazing life. I know that she was and is so proud of you. You are a part of her that we on earth can appreciate. How lucky we were to have know her.How lucky you were to have experienced her love and life. Martha

  5. I’m so sorry for your lose.I have never met a women as friendly or as Godly as your grandma.She will be missed.But I’m praying for you and your family.

  6. Lynds we love ya! She was such a wonderful woman! I really cannot find the words for you or the rest of the fam to make you smile or feel better.. but I know she and your grandfather are smiling down on their wonderul and beautiful family…I’m sure they are so proud of all of you! If you guys need ANYTHING…Call, I can be there in a flash!

  7. Lyndsay, I am so sorry for you loss. I will be praying for you and your family and believing that your hearts will be comforted during this time. How amazing that our hope is in a God that will never leave us! He will show himself faithful and strong in the midst of an ‘overwhelming’ time. 10days after Beto and I got engaged, his mom passed away – and over 3 years later we can testify of the faithfulness of the Lord. Thinking about you…

  8. My hugs and prayers are with you and your family at this time, Lyndsay. I enjoyed reading about her in your blog, and I’m sorry to hear about this..yet, I am happy to know that you have a new angel and she’s now walking with God and your Grandpa. We are to celebrate her life here on earth as she enters the Kingdom of God. Bless you and your family, Lyndsay.

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